Cloverpaw | Male | Scorchclan May 6, 2017 5:10:29 GMT
Post by Wild on May 6, 2017 5:10:29 GMT
Adoption link: Invert's Adoption
Age: 6 moons
Sexuality: Not sure yet but possibly Demisexual.
Skills: Cloverpaw isn't really experienced in many things yet. His apprenticeship has just started and he is trying to learn new skills but he doesn't really know how to do many things correctly. Whenever he makes mistakes Cloverpaw tends to be his worst critic and the thought of his mother's anger and resentment tends to weigh on him like a raincloud.
+ Fighting | Climbing | Running
:Hunting | Stealth | Tracking
- Swimming | Endurance | Jumping
Future: Cloverpaw doesn't know his future. He doesn't know if he will ever have a good one or a bad one; he just hopes that it will be one where he can finally be happy with himself.
Fur color and markings: Starting from the top of his head to the tip of his tail, Cloverpaw is as white as snow with no markings or variations.
Fur length: Cloverpaw's fur is long and thick with a slight curl to it.
Body size: This tom is small for his age and his weight tends to fluctuate often due to sometimes having eating problems or random weight loss or weight gain due to stress. His size can sometimes appear smaller than he actually is due to the way Cloverpaw tends to carry himself.
Eye color: Cloverpaw has giant golden eyes that stand out vibrantly against his white face.
Overall appearance: Cloverpaw looks like a fluffy white cloud with a bright pink nose, pink pads, and small ears.
Personality paragraph: Cloverpaw is a very sweet and hard-working apprentice. Being raised with high expectations and neverending demands he is used to bending over backwards for another cat's wishes. His dedication to improving himself is unwavering despite his lack of confidence. Whenever he makes a mistake he is overly critical of himself, going as far as to punish himself by means of lack of sleep or skipping meals because he sees himself as unworthy. Whenever others make mistakes however Cloverpaw easily forgives, seeing their mistake as his own - "if I had only helped. If I had only done better. If I had only said the right thing." He has many insecurities and questions praises when they are received. When he does fully believe he has done a good thing it brings him so much joy and happiness, especially if it is a very personal accomplishment. The trouble is making Cloverpaw believe in himself.
+ Cooperative | Punctual | Hard-working | Sweet
: Self-critical | Forgiving | Faithless
- Brittle | Self-Destructive | Insecure | Tense
Likes: Being praised and quiet places
Dislikes: Disappointing others and Lightning
Fears: Cloverpaw is terrified of losing his siblings. They have remained the only source of comfort in his life while the rest of the world around him continues to prove how harsh it can truly be. The rejection of his mother, his older brother, and his father has left Cloverpaw feeling all his mistakes as complete shortcomings. The only love he feels resides in the eyes of Yarrowpaw and Daisypaw.
Goals: Survival and finding happiness.
History: Cloverkit was born with his siblings Yarrowkit and Daisykit, all of whom were looked upon with eyes of expectation. As they grew and showed their mother and the clan that they were indeed, individuals, they were looked upon with disgust by the ones who were supposed to love them the most. Seeing this hate in the eyes of his family, Cloverkit became convinced that the rest of the world must see him with the same eyes. With such high standards to live up to Cloverkit tried his hardest to do right; to become what his mother needed him to be but he was never 'enough.' When his mother left Cloverkit was devastated. He was never able to convince her that he was good enough, never able to show just how strong and reliable he could be. And it crushed him. Now, Cloverpaw sees himself with the same hate he saw in the eyes of his mother. He can never be good enough, but the only thing Cloverpaw knows how to do is try. And he will try every day, even though he knows in the end he will fail.